FAÇADE Chapter 21

Always told you not to love me

I got poison in my pocket, told you I was bad news

My demeanor made you wait, but the consequences stayed

I killed everything we were

It's been 27 hours since we even saw the sun

~Banks, 27 Hours

When I was made to pay for all that I had done.

FAÇADE Chapter 20

Just one more time before I go I'll let you know

That all this time I've been afraid, wouldn't let it show

Stars are only visible in darkness

The only sound is the battle cry

Nobody can save me now

It's do or die

~Imagine Dragons, Battle Cry

The one time Bella should have told me her plans.

EPOV

1,500 Acres Chapter 11

His fingertips trailing over my face woke me up. I felt whole again, fully at peace and rested for the first time since he left two months ago. Hooded eyes were gazing at me as I blinked to clear the lingering sleep and reassure myself he was here, naked, in my bed.

FAÇADE Chapter 19

All these minutes passing, sick of feeling used

If you wanna break these walls down, you’re gonna get bruised

Now my neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it

Already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it

I'm headed straight for the castle, they’ve got the kingdom locked up

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying

I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

But I'm headed straight for the castle

~Halsey, Castle

When I experienced pain that was worse than all the violence one should have to endure in a lifetime.

FAÇADE Chapter 18

It's okay for you to hate me for all the things I've done

I've made a few mistakes, but I'm not the only one

Was there ever any question on how much I could take?

You kept feeding me your bullshit hoping I would break

You will never see what's inside of me

I pull you under just to save myself

~Five Finger Death Punch, Coming Down

When I had a screaming match with Carlisle.

1,500 Acres Chapter 10

Everything was the same the next morning. I didn't know what I expected, but there was nothing dramatic going on at my humble ranch. The night had been difficult; I used to relish being alone, bask in it, even. Now it was lonely and strange. My bed was cold and I missed having Edward pressed up against me. The breakfast table was too quiet, the horses too solemn. Rusty wandered aimlessly, probably looking for his friend. His dark, droopy eyes looked up at me despondently.

FAÇADE Chapter 17

Every day is one more inch of a slow blade sinking in

Vision fading, suffocating inside my own skin

But just remember that I warned you, my will can never break

I’m fighting a stranger in my eyes, I know that only one of us will survive

If I can’t save us I've got to save myself.

~ Skylar Grey, Slowly Freaking Out

When the death toll rose higher than expected.

FAÇADE Chapter 16

I promise you that I'll make sure you never forget me
Now that you want it, now that you need it
You're trying to blame me but I'm not breaking
You make me so bulletproof
And now I'm too far gone

~Godsmack, Bulletproof

When I sort of made friends with Jasper.

1,500 Acres Chapter 9

With the money I made during the month of August, I was able to pay off all of the debt that my husband had accrued. This helped me to begin saving money to pay a ranch hand to start by the beginning of September.

FAÇADE Chapter 15

Usually, I hold the power with both my hands tied behind my back

You’ve awoken me, but you’re choking me

Gave you all of me, and now honestly, I got nothing left

You are the fire, I’m gasoline

Knew we would crash at the speed that we were going

Didn’t care if the explosion ruined me

~Charlie Puth, Dangerously

When it all went to shit.

FAÇADE Chapter 14

You probably thought that I'd never escape

I'd be a rat in a cage, I'd be a slave to this place

You don't know how hard I fought to survive,

Waking up alone when I was left to die

You don't know about this life I've lived

Take a look in the mirror, see the truth in your face

~In This Moment, Whore

When I thought Bella was going to kill Emmett in front of witnesses.

1,500 Acres Chapter 8

The rest of July went by in a blur. I was trying my best to live in the moment, to enjoy Edward and everything he had to offer. He was witty; he made me laugh until I almost peed in my pants. He was caring, insisting I took Sundays off while he tended to the animals. He was solicitous, constantly asking if I felt okay or if he’d hurt me. I was going out of my mind with lust for him some days, and I got a little carried away. I had to assure him that I liked it when he took control and that it didn't hurt or frighten me. I’d discovered his birthday was back in June and I insisted on baking him a cake. We might or might not have ended up with flour in interesting crevices.

FAÇADE Chapter 13

I tried to hold these secrets inside me

My mind's like a deadly disease

I'm meaner than my demons

I can't help this awful energy

God damn right, you should be scared of me

Who is in control?

~Halsey, Control

When I discovered not even a shovel could dig me out of this hole.