FAÇADE Chapter 30

When I was lost, you took me home

You gave me hope when I was at the end

And turned my lies back into truth again

I was confused, you cleared my mind

I sold my soul, you bought it back for me

And held me up and gave me dignity

Somehow you needed me

You gave me strength to stand alone again

I needed you and you were there

~Anne Murray, You Needed Me

When our dinner plans were cut short.

1,500 Acres Chapter 16

The next morning found me on the porch with my coffee, as was my habit. It had snowed more overnight, and I loved to see my land and buildings covered in it. It gave everything a hushed, reverent feel. I’d already slipped on my muddy boots and wound my way to the horse barn, so there were tracks from me and Rusty, but other than that the snow was clean and smooth and perfect looking. I breathed deeply, enjoying the clean smell and crisp air.

FAÇADE Chapter 29

I'm scared, oh, so scared
But when you're near me
I feel like I'm standing with an army
When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more

~Miley Cyrus, Adore You

When I needed every ounce of my patience.

FAÇADE Chapter 28

I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles

And the heavens open every time she smiles

And when I come to her that's where I belong

Yet I'm running to her like a river's song

She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love

~ Van Morrison, Crazy Love

When I dated Bella Swan.

1,500 Acres Chapter 15

There weren't any vehicles for sale in the entire county, at least not advertised. Most people around here kept their vehicles until they ran them into the ground, and then they fixed them or found someone to fix them. It had been a struggle without one for sure, but my friends had been generous and helpful in that regard. I would be happy to stop paying a delivery fee to Mike. Even though I loved the Newton family, I didn't need to pass off any more of my income than necessary. The only solution I could find to buying a truck was to go either to Buffalo, or even further to Woodwater.

FAÇADE Chapter 27

I don't believe I'll fall from grace

Won't let the past decide my fate

Leave forgiveness in my wake

Take the love that I've embraced

Alive and burning brighter

~Halestorm, I Am The Fire

When we found our new normal.

FAÇADE Chapter 26

What if I said I was built on bricks of carelessness and crumbs

What if I said I would break your heart?

What if I said I have problems that made me mean?

Maybe you can see that I just may be too crazy to love

Maybe you can stop before you start

~Banks, You Should Know Where I’m Coming From

When five words out of Bella’s mouth fucked me up.

1,500 Acres Chapter 14

I suppose I should have seen it coming, but it didn't occur to me until it was too late. When we all returned to the barn to hand our horses off to Seth, Carlisle tried to climb off Blaze by himself. The sight of him struggling to throw his leg over Blaze’s neck was so undignified, but that wasn't what made me shout for him to stop and let someone help. His ankle was turned in the stirrup as he swung his other leg over the saddle horn, and as a result he got tangled and fell off. It wasn't simply him falling, which would have been bad enough. It was that he was near the entrance of the stalls, where puddles had formed after the snow melted. Carlisle ended up ass first in sloppy mud.

FAÇADE Chapter 25

I said I didn’t feel nothing, baby, but I lied

I almost cut a piece of myself for your life

I was just another pit stop ‘til you made up your mind

You just wasted my time

Falling for you was my mistake

~ The Weeknd, Call Out My Name

When the rest of my night went well.

FAÇADE Chapter 24

My soul surrenders and you bring my heart to its knees

And I know it's wrong and I know it's right

Even if I try to win the fight, my heart would overrule my mind

I'm not strong enough to stay away

In your presence my heart knows no shame

~Apocalyptica, Not Strong Enough

When the carefully crafted life I’d built went to shit. Again.

1,500 Acres Chapter 13

The next day went pretty much as I expected. The Cullens arrived just after breakfast dressed in designer jeans that looked like they’d been starched and pressed. Esme’s coat wasn't fur, but it was an unfamiliar fabric that was really soft when she hugged me. I was pleased with her greeting and unwilling to begin the day on the wrong track, so I let go all of my preconceived ideas and acted like this wasn’t a working ranch that had several things waiting to be done.

FAÇADE Chapter 23

I would trade, give away, all the words

That I saved in my heart, that I left unspoken

What hurts the most was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing what could've been

~Aaron Lewis, What Hurts the Most

How I became truly fulfilled in my life.

FAÇADE Chapter 22

Will the faithful be rewarded when we come to the end

Will I miss the final warning from the lie that I have lived

And I am not worthy, I am not worthy of this

Stay with me, don't let me go, because there's nothing left at all

I am still calling to you

~ Breaking Benjamin, Ashes of Eden

When I tried to pick up the pieces.

1,500 Acres Chapter 12

Mr. and Mrs. Cullen were coming to my home. There was no doubt in my mind that they were going to judge my ranch and me, and they were going to give Edward a hard time for wanting to live here. I was sure he would tell them he was in love and wanted to marry me, and they would tell him his decisions were ruled by his dick. It was what I would have said to my child if they suddenly wanted to give up a stable job in the family business to go live in a city they knew nothing about after only a few months working on a ranch with a widow who became his lover.